And, below is my "Flower Frog" that Meari was telling about on her blog. I have several more in "That" room. I am getting very close to starting "the dig"!!
I think I must be doing better than I have given my self credit for. My pastor, who did SO much for and with Max, has been spending many hours with a young mother from my church. As I understand she has a four year old little boy and six year old little girl that she adopted about two years ago. This poor woman had severe backaches a bit less than two months ago that became so unbearable she had to consult a doctor.
She was sent to our major medical center at University of Iowa. She was found to have central nervous system cancer which totally invaded her spine, brain, bones and liver VERY rapidly!! She had one chemo treatment at the big medical center which left her entire mouth one big huge openly bleeding sore!! She had been told this chemo would do nothing, but make her more comfortable, but not give her any extended time before she passes!?!?!?!?!!! Yesterday, this dear woman was sitting up in her hospital bed at hospital extended care unit locally, last night she was trying to throw her legs out of bed and was making extremely bad noises of groaning and cryin with intense pain. About 10:00 p.m. last night my pastor telephoned me and asked if I was willing to be her hospice advocate and could I sit with her today. I had some early morning appointments, but told him I surely would go to her today and would be most willing to do any thing I could.
I tossed and turned all night with not being able to decide what I could do and what we could chat about. I was so worried I would do some thing wrong!! However, upon arriving at hospital about 11:00 a.m. this morning, I found this woman almost comatose with very few groans or sounds from her. At one point, she focused on the ceiling and began just thrashing one arm after the other in an attempt to possibly "grab" at some thing. I have never seen a person be in such all out and utter horrorific pain ever!! I have never felt so helpless and wordless in my life!! I was to the point I just wanted to find a corner and cry for this sweet lady!! I believe they said she was 47 years old!! There were photos of the most beautiful children I have ever seen. Fortunately, I do not believe the little man will remember loosing his original mother, but am sure the little gal will and now they loose their adoptive mother after a few years time. And, to think this woman was considered healthy and fine a short two months ago!!
I went through so much with this dear little woman today that I also experienced with Max. I am praying for God's mercies to simply come and take this sweet angel ASAP!! Amazing I can not say today was not without old pains surfacing for me, but I think I was better equipped to handle every thing today and I am "thinking" I might truly like to get in to putting my self on a local list to be called when ever I might be able to help others by simply being there for them!!
Thus, I know I still have a long ways to go, but I know now I can make it and I will be okay!!
Love and Hugs!!