Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Tuesday, March 08, 2011 - Rest In Peace Beloved Husband

After a VERY long and VERY hard fight, I lost my beloved husband, Max, yesterday, Monday, March 07, 2011 at 9:25 a.m.

Unfortunately, it was the most unimaginable horrific type of death I ever had to see. Every time I try to close my eyes, I see and hear it all over again and again.

Max and I definitely had our ups and downs, but we always were brought back together, better than ever!! I truly loved my husband. I felt like such a horrible failure when I had to give up and admit I could not longer care for him and had no choice but to place him in the nursing home on August 23, 2011. I would not wish this fate to any one!!

Bottom line, my beloved Max is finally at peace and not suffering any longer. And, my Max did suffer to the very bitter end.

A wonderful lady who happened to be of black skin was in attendance to Max in his final hours. Within the last minute or so of Max's last breath this beautiful nurse just broke out in the most beautiful song about not having tomorrow. She sang like an angel and made a very horrific scene quite beautiful. I will be ever so honored with her singing this song again at Max's funeral on Thursday!!

My Beloved Max,

We always said "A family is not made up by numbers". But, the two of us were like an entire army. Together we overcame most obstacles that came our way, that would stop all others in their tracks. However, this was one obstacle that you had to face alone, but still the fact remains you won!!

You do not have to worry about any more heartaches and pains because now you are with our Heavenly Father.

You were my buddy, my care giver, and beloved husband for thirty-one plus years. I will not say good-bye because I will see you again. Do not say I did not warn you!!

Yes, God has carried you to His house, a better place. So sleep on Honey and take your long and well deserved rest.

I loved you, but God loved you best!!

Give Miprezious Dee Dee lots of kisses and hugs till Mommy sees her again also.

Love Always,
Deborah (Big Mama)

11 comments:

Shari said...

I am so sorry to hear of your loss....I cannot even begin to imagine how hard it is.....I read about this on Kathy's blog...
hugs & prayers to you at this most difficult time.

Pauline said...

I came over here from Kathy's blog and just wanted to tell you how sorry I am. Despite the health issues Max had (just finished reading your posts), the man you loved is gone and I feel for you. Sending you hugs, you're in my thoughts tonight.

Kathy said...

My heart is aching for you Deborah. I know you are devastated at loosing your beloved Max. But he will always be watching over you. And he is no longer in pain but watching from the fishing hole and waiting for you while he trys to catch the big one.
Condolences and hugs.
Kathy
and Rory too

Ranae said...

I am so sorry to hear of your great loss
Take care!!!

Sandy In Montana said...

Dear Deborah, I am deeply saddened to hear of Max's passing. You have my deepest condolences for your loss. I will continue to keep you always in my prayers and thoughts.

Take Care
Hug's, Sandy in Montana

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Siobhan said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You and Max are in my thoughts and prayers.

Nancy M said...

I am so sorry to hear of Max's passing. But my heart is with you as you continue on into a new phase of your life. Max and Mi will be with you always in your heart. Take care.

Carolyn NC said...

I'm so sorry, Deborah. Hugs and prayers.

Katrien said...

Dear Deborah,
I'm so sorry for your loss.

Valda said...

I am so sorry for your great loss.