CELEBRATION - May 04, 2011

I have never been more happier in my life!! This atrocity of a stitched piece is done!! It is absolutely horrible.

HOWEVER, the bride and groom personally selected the three colors and the fabric and color. They have seen the progress along the way and continued to love it!! Perhaps, they feared upsetting me as every one assumes I am still right on the "edge" of things.

Whatever, I could not care as it is FINISHED!! I have never been happier with a piece I have detested never as much!!

It surely goes without saying, I am still ever so grieving and missing my beloved Max and our darling little Miprezious. I purchased a lawn swing today with a big awning attached. Of course, Eunice was with me to oversee I did nothing too crazy!! We had to wait for the store employees to load this large piece, or I should say pieces, into her truck. As we waited, Eunice remarked all I needed was to go now and purchase another "teacup" baby. My mother was on the speaker phone and quickly added nothing stays small that I am in charge of!! Eunice thinks if I could keep a new "teacup" small that it would be little trouble to me and ever so much company and enjoyment. Lets say I am surely glad we were no where near a breeder, thankfully, so I was not able to actually see a new baby and surely want and have to have it. And, I soon thought about the care involved and just am not too sure if I am able to do this currently.

Eunice began telling me that I could easily do this after all I have recently gone through and done and also began telling me how lovely it would be for me to be able to sit out on my new swing with a new baby be side me.

I think I will re-think this one very long and hard before I go visiting my favorite breeder for now.

I do so miss my beloved dear ones, but it truly has helped that I am keeping so busy. Being as disabled as I am it takes me at least ten times longer to do any thing, but I have learned the patience it takes to just do regardless of how long it takes me. I have began going through each room and re-organizing it and moving Max's things elsewhere so I do not have to be surprised with continually finding them at the most inopportune moments. I also need to get this home made as safe as possible for my own access and movements. The downsizing is about to begin!!

I have pretty much learned to go to church by my self with out being so utterly discomfortable. I still say a church pew is the most loneliest place in the entire world!! I am hoping to begin meeting some of the congregation soon as I have decided to begin the new membership classes this coming Sunday and will consider changing my church affiliation to Methodist from Episcopal. Unfortunately, our Episcopal church has just begun to sink and I do not see any good outcomes for it. This Methodist church just picked us up, out of the blue, a few years ago and held a benefit for me and my medical needs along with putting in the handicap ramps, and so many, many other things. The biggest thing was the Associate Pastor was able to befriend Max and he was the very most caring person ever to him, as well as my self. This Pastor was the person who presented Max's entire medical status and it's options to Max and helped Max make the decision he was not going to continue to fight a useless battle and wished hospice to take over. I could never have presented all this to him and it was such a blessing to me to have Max actually tell me enough was enough and that he wanted hospice brought in.

So, I can continue to do and be I guess. I am okay and can see the light at the end of the tunnel finally in there is hope this will all get better enough to want to go on.

Well, hopefully some where on this is a couple of pictures of the atrocity called "Toile Lace"!!

Love and Hugs!!

Deborah

Monday, March 28, 2011 - I AM EXCITED!!

I am intent on finishing all the loose ends of Max's funeral and estate, etc. by the end of this week. This morning the funeral home director came to my home to help me accomplish many things. Among these things was picking out the cemetery marker. This task made me even more sad than I started today, however, before it was finished I was happy, smiling and ever so excited!! Again, my camera and I need some more coordinating with each other as I got more bad pictures, however, I did try my all to get this marker's picture clear so you could see it. I lived a stitcher and now I am assured I will pass as a stitcher and be ever after remembered as a stitcher. I got a cross stitch piece, hoop, thread and needle engraved in my own cemetery marker!! I am happy and so excited over this!! I had no idea this could be done!! The pictures are below. I am also very excited and happy to have Miprezious Dee Dee included on our family marker. De De I has her own bronze marker at the foot of our graves.

And, I also got another finish for this year all in my past "Me" stitching weekend. I think this was the quickest finish ever for me!! I am contemplating making it in to some thing like a pillow case. I am going to try to find a small piece of Easter themed fabric for the back of this. Of course, in this one horse town there is no where to purchase fabric, but there is always the possibility of my going the hour commute to next largest town where they have all kinds of stores. I then am hoping it will fit over the permanent star on my display tree and I will have an Easter tree topper!!

It is just three weeks ago today that I lost the love of my life Max. You would think I could not possibly have any more tears left in me, but they still sneak out without any warning too much of the time.

I did get my self awakened and dressed yesterday morning in plenty of time for church. I feel there is absolutely no place lonelier than sitting in a church pew by your self. I drove to my church as slow as I legally could and found a parking place. And, then I proceeded to simply just sit and chat with Max about making my self get out of my car and go in to the church. I eventually did go in to the church and the services were once again lovely. And, a couple did come in as ask if they could share my pew and did introduce their selves to me. I still can not say this is a comfortable thing for me to do, but hopefully I will keep making it a habit and it will become easier.

Today, I did begin re-doing my kitchen. I have searched for some ten hours online for some simple solid colored, tea rose preferably, kitchen tier curtains. I have not been able to find any thing!! I am about to declare a nice finder's fee to find them. I am also going to buy a new dining table and chairs as soon as I can find a set I love. I have a big old style solid maple drop leaf table and chairs that are simply too big. I am planning on hopefully finding a much smaller sized set as my days of large dinner parties are over. I am also hopefully going to find a nice stackable washer and dryer to put in my kitchen if the plumbing and venting can be done. Getting a washer and dryer upstairs will give me the total independence that I want so badly!!

I am intending to do each room in my home one last time. I no longer have to worry about the "ifs" and questionables as to Max ever coming back home again. Prior to this time, I still wanted to keep things comfortable for Max as I planned on several weekend visits and I always held out the hope I could some how bring him home for good where he belonged. Now, having to accept that will never happen changes so many things.

I want every thing in it's place and kept that way from now on. I have absolutely no one to blame any more for any clutter or mess as both Miprezious and Max are gone. It is just now me, my self and I.

Overall, it was the best weekend I have had in quite some time!! The weather is forecasted to be very nice the next few days so possibly I can get all my "to do" list done before a new one begins!!

Love and Hugs!!

Deborah

Friday, March 25, 2011 - IT IS THE WEEKEND AND I FINALLY HAVE A PLAN!!

Yes, I am still taking one step forward and two steps backward, but I am making progress!! However, if one more person tells me how "strong" I am, I actually want to show them!! No, I truly do not feel this way as I know every one is just trying to find the "right" thing to say to me and all sincerely do mean well.

This is still gut wrenching hard and so very painful. I miss my beloved Max more each day, all nineteen of them. It seems like a life time ago. I still jump when my phone rings each night thinking one it is the nursing home telling me of more troubles or two, hoping it is my dear Max going to tell me he loves me and goodnight.

It seems like my days are just crazy busy and full. I "think" I am just about done with my "to do" list and will be caught up, however, as Eunice pointed out to me this afternoon there will just be another new list awaiting for me!!

Eunice is my beloved neighbor, friend and all out caregiver. Max and I would have sunk to the very bottom years ago without her just "stepping up" and taking over here. She also happens to be a black woman who has her own ways and a bit different culture ways. I had a problem initially, but now I have learned to LOVE her macaroni and cheese, corn bread, green beans, cabbage rolls, fried cabbage, sweet potatoes and the list goes on and on. I never would touch these particular foods before I sampled them from Eunice!! And, today she came over (intent to keep me busy and my mind occupied) and did an inpromtu cooking class. I hopefully learned a lot and more hopefully pray I can remember it all. Every thing turned out very tasty and will be a wonderful dinner for taking a dish to my own mother and supper for me tomorrow.

I began this day with having to run a relatively short errand and had an appointment. Well, my appointment got re-scheduled for tomorrow and this left me with the prospect of probably my first weekend where it was not planned for me!! Thus, I did make a stop at my local LNS and ended up getting three new pillows and the new Waxing Moon "Bunny Egg Mini"!! The colors simply jumped out at me and I love them all. The wedding project nears ever so closely on May 14, but I simply had to break out and do some thing I just wanted to do cheery and fun. Thus, I planned to begin to stitch all weekend, with no regard for every thing else I have falling on me!! As I said above, Eunice arrived to cook, cook, cook and I did assist and hopefully learn. All this food has me set for the weekend and I am simply going to forget the kitchen makeover I was intent to begin until Monday. This is going to be MY TIME first weekend and I intend to make the most of it with hopefully some spring finishes!!

And, I had the furniture store come and exchange the "salmon" colored chair for an olive green chair to complete my newly redecorated living room. Also, for a few finishing touches, I added a bit of Easter to it.

Thus, I have to be going forward, at least I think I am!!


Above is Waxing Moon Designs newly released "Bunny Egg Mini" and I purchased a piece of "Chablis", "Whimsey" and "Raspberry" colored fabrics to stitch a few of my own eggs. Above is Pine Mountain April "Rick Rack Row" Pillow. I love the colors in this pillow and can not wait to get it done!!

Above is Pine Mountain April Tuck Pillow. Such bright and cheerful colors and another project I truly want to get done as soon as possible.

Above is Pine Mountain "Spring Breezes" Tie One On Pillow Kit. This will just have to brighten my mood!!

Above is one of the wedding projects I just HAVE to have done for the May 14 wedding. It is by Imaginating and is called very simply "Toile Frame". It is wanted the bride truly wanted and in those exact colors!!

And, above very side ways, (one of these days I am going to learn how to edit these pictures) is one of the three new ornament trees I had gotten.

Finally, decided to attempt to decorate one with some sort of effort.

And, I found the greatest Easter egg and nest in my all time favorite pink while shopping for doilies for the new tables. I love this find!

And, above is the final choice of chairs for my new living room redecoration project. Think I am totally in love with this project and can now just get nested in my new stitching nook and just take it all and get used to it in between those little "x's"!!

This has to be all time record, TWO Blogs in the same week!!

Love and Hugs!!

Deborah

TUESDAY, MARCH 21, 2011 - LIFE CONTINUES ON!!

Life IS continuing without getting my vote!! I was "made" to attend the first of fourteen "grieving" sessions last Thursday!! I just know I am going to be "expelled" from this group even quicker than we did at Puppygarten!! I just want to get up and choke these people and tell them to get a life, but yet I know the gut wrenching pain and loneliness these people are going through. However, the next newest besides my self is SEVEN YEARS out!! I do not want to think I am going to stay in this state for another seven years or more!! But, at this point, I pretty much do as I am directed as I can not make up my mind as to what type of cereal I would like for breakfast yet.

I am doing okay. I now choose to at least get out of bed, rather than opting for a week of not moving from it!!

Prior to Max's ultimate last fall that broke his hip, I had started planning on redoing my living room. One day last week I found my self driving by the furniture store and decided to go in and see if I still loved the choices I had made. This furniture store has been run by at least three generations and probably more of the same family. The children I grew up baby-sitting are now running the store. However, their parents have just moved back from Las Vegas and are living upstairs of the store. Some one told the mother I was in the store and she yelled down orders that I was not to leave until she could come down and see me. And, the mother came down and we sat down on the very furniture I had chosen and chatted for almost four straight hours about the old days and my own parents. I soon realized I was sitting on the new smaller version of the sofa I had decided I had wanted and then decided I would surely purchase it. I also purchased a chair and three tables. The sofa and chair both actually rock and I LOVE them!! The furniture was delivered today and I soon discovered the chair just was not compatible with my existing lift chair and for that matter my entire living room. As par for the course, Eunice was called and came immediately over. We both then decided this same chair in green to match the pillows that came with the sofa was just what was needed or at least I sincerely hope so as I did call the furniture store and asked that they bring up the green version of the same chair and they will be doing this tomorrow afternoon.

I had wanted to get the entire living room and foyer cleaned and shined to perfection today, but discovered about half way through this task I was tired to exhausted and knew it was time to quit until tomorrow. So, I think I will have completely redone my living room now as I recently had it painted and carpeted.

I guess, I truly have accomplished some thing!!

I still have so many loose ends from Max's services and so many little things that need my personal attention. Last week, I was determined to be eligible for collecting on Max's Social Security as it was much larger amount than my own. I also was given Max's full pension. And, I was informed to get my own Medicare Supplement and Prescription Drug coverages ASAP as I would no longer have any medical insurance coverages whatsoever other than my own Medicare!! I was stunned!!
I hardly know where to begin. Eunice advised me to go to AARP, but got turned down immediately with them as I am no where near 65 years of age yet!! I guess tomorrow is another day and it has to be the first day of my search for medical insurance coverages as the people at RSVP were able to inform me my prescription drug costs amount to $3,300 PER MONTH!! In the past, I had to pay little if any thing for my medical coverages, and had no idea what the full costs of my prescriptions amounted to. Yet another new experience I do not want to have!!

I am close to like 180 posts on my Blog. I thought and re-thought over and over about the name of my Blog when we lost Miprezious in September. Now, I think I am going to have to change it in some way to reflect that both my beloveds Max and Miprezious are no longer with me.
Yesterday, marked two weeks since my dear husband went to heaven and it seems like it is forever already!! They tell me that grief is the cost of loving some one precious to you. I wonder about ever loving any one else again if this is true!!

I finally did get out my stitching as I have a dear "adopted" daughter getting married on May 14. I am creating both the ring pillow and card box around my stitched pieces. The main piece that she wants to put on the card box is this marriage piece I have pictured and is called some thing with "toile lace". It is a major PITA to stitch and most unfortunately on Aida also. And, I have not even begun the second piece yet!! Guess, I am being forced into some major stitching hours NOW!!

I have also posted some pictures of the new living room as it is tonight. Tomorrow will bring the new chair and great hope it will be the thing to simply make this room pop and coordinate very well together. Again, only time will tell.

I am so hoping to begin to Blog and perhaps do something real crazy for possibly renaming the Blog and it's 200th posting. Fortunately or unfortunately, my mother is now online and I do not think she is ready to read this Blog's history whatsoever!! Another reason for a new Blog beginning!!

Above are all the pillows I stitched during Max's six hour dialysis sessions when I was going and staying with him through them.

Above and Below are pictures of the "toile lace" I am stitching for "They Lived Happily Ever After"

Above is the new sofa and oval glass top end table.

Above is the new coffee table which I will eventually place all the many memorial pictures I am fast accumulating.

Above is my new stitching nest on the right and the new chair that is being returned tomorrow.

Love and Hugs!!

Deborah

Tuesday, March 08, 2011 - Rest In Peace Beloved Husband

After a VERY long and VERY hard fight, I lost my beloved husband, Max, yesterday, Monday, March 07, 2011 at 9:25 a.m.

Unfortunately, it was the most unimaginable horrific type of death I ever had to see. Every time I try to close my eyes, I see and hear it all over again and again.

Max and I definitely had our ups and downs, but we always were brought back together, better than ever!! I truly loved my husband. I felt like such a horrible failure when I had to give up and admit I could not longer care for him and had no choice but to place him in the nursing home on August 23, 2011. I would not wish this fate to any one!!

Bottom line, my beloved Max is finally at peace and not suffering any longer. And, my Max did suffer to the very bitter end.

A wonderful lady who happened to be of black skin was in attendance to Max in his final hours. Within the last minute or so of Max's last breath this beautiful nurse just broke out in the most beautiful song about not having tomorrow. She sang like an angel and made a very horrific scene quite beautiful. I will be ever so honored with her singing this song again at Max's funeral on Thursday!!

My Beloved Max,

We always said "A family is not made up by numbers". But, the two of us were like an entire army. Together we overcame most obstacles that came our way, that would stop all others in their tracks. However, this was one obstacle that you had to face alone, but still the fact remains you won!!

You do not have to worry about any more heartaches and pains because now you are with our Heavenly Father.

You were my buddy, my care giver, and beloved husband for thirty-one plus years. I will not say good-bye because I will see you again. Do not say I did not warn you!!

Yes, God has carried you to His house, a better place. So sleep on Honey and take your long and well deserved rest.

I loved you, but God loved you best!!

Give Miprezious Dee Dee lots of kisses and hugs till Mommy sees her again also.

Love Always,
Deborah (Big Mama)

Monday, February 14, 2011 Valentines Day

Is there a BAH HUM BUG appropriate for Valentines Day?!

We have always had some sort of special Valentines Day. I even was married on Valentines Day, 1969!! Well, that marriage crash and burned and truly was a double BAH HUM BUG!!

I thought Max was having a fairly good day yesterday. Thus, I told him we would do a special day away from the nursing home for Valentines Day. So, I began with picking Max up from the nursing home to go to church. We just began attending this church and I would truly love to get to meet some of the people and possibly get a life going again. But, Max would not sit still and could not move fast enough to finally just leave!!

We have a beautiful new restaurant on our big marina that is just surrounded by the Mississippi River which is loaded with eagles now.

We had a lovely table at the restaurant and every thing appeared to be quite pleasant with us. Par to course, Max ate a few bites of his salad, but refused to touch his steak, etc. He continued to push me to just eat quickly so we could go on to Walgreens. I tried to tell him it was so nice to just sit and watch the river and it's activity and every thing around us, but he was adamant he just wanted to go to Walgreens. Thus, we did leave the restaurant and went to Walgreens. As soon as I got the van parked, Max wanted to know if he had any money that I could give him.

Well, over time I know of $100+ that Max has just simply lost and I have since decided he can not have any more money. I assured Max he could pick up any thing he wanted in the store and that I would pay for every thing when we were ready to leave with my debit card. Again, it was rush, rush, rush to leave Walgreens!! Upon getting to check-out counter the clerk asked if we had found every thing we had wanted. Max immediately jumped on this and demanded a package of cigarettes!! I was absolutely stunned with this one!! The clerk went to reach for the cigarettes and I told her Max was mistaken and he was NOT getting any cigarettes!! Max went in to complete "melt down" and proceeded to throw a tantrum unmatched to any two year olds!! He continued to rage on about the cigarettes all the way back to the nursing home.

I have "adopted" several residents of the home. I try to take them special little gifts and goodies to eat when ever they want them. I truly feel they are the "grandmas" and "grandpas" that I no longer have. One man, James, had not spoken whatsoever prior to Max going in to the nursing home. He consistently always looked for Miprezious as she always went to the nursing home whenever I did (which was every day). Soon James began to reach out for Mi and within days he began to babble words to her and eventually to me. He now is talking, more like stuttering babble, and he can be understood fairly well. Today was a regular dialysis day for Max. The nursing home had a special luncheon for all the "couples" at the nursing home in a private dining room. I thought this was nice of them as there are only a few of us that they consider to be "couples". However, Max was gone from the home till late this afternoon for dialysis. Thus, I did not go today. I have decided to try and simply call Max's dialysis days my personal days of rest. I was relieved of my "duties" to accompany Max to each dialysis session a few weeks ago finally. Most unfortunately, I am getting reports of him not "behaving" again and I am sure I will be "ordered" to attend with him again any day. Thus, I knew yesterday that I most likely was going to try and stay at home to rest from the weekend today so I got small gifts for each of my special "grandparents" and I told Max we should go and deliver them and make my "required" visits to each of them. If I do not look each of these people up when I arrive at the home they will begin to come looking for me. Nurses say they get quite upset as to if I am okay if I am not there at usual times. Well, Max was still in his "snit" of not being able to get cigarettes and he was not going to even act like I existed again!! Max refused to go on visits and simply threw his coat and hat on his bed and took off to Bingo without saying a word to any one!! I decided to just make my daily visits and deliver my Valentine gifts to assure these people had them to enjoy today. I was truly apprehensive about taking a small Valentine bear that sang and lit up to James. He is a very large man and has been known to get quite "nasty" when he becomes agitated. I also had a little box of chocolates for him and was not sure if he would like them as he is a very picky eater at meal times. But, I got the most pleasure of my entire Valentines Day

weekend from James. He opened his gift bag and just began to give me a big smile and huge hug!!

I had bought several boxes of Valentines that had a bit of candy attached to them. Karen (Max's room mate's daughter) and I spent days signing Max and her father's names to these cards and assembling them last week. Max's room mate, Ed, is completely bedridden at this time. Thus, I took the bag with the Valentines and candies down to the dining room and dropped it in to Max's lap and told him he had an excellent opportunity to distribute them after the Bingo games were over and that I was going home. Max just gave me that Alzheimer glare and I am not sure if he even knew me from the staff again.

Thus, Valentines Day is officially over!! Praise the Lord!! At this particular point of time, I just wish all holidays were completely wiped off all calendars!! However, I did receive a very large delivery today. I have tried to take pictures, but they are BAD, BAD, BAD. I finally decided I needed to add some decorations for the pictures. I put some on, but it all looks like a decorator's nightmare yet at this point in time!!

Thus, some where on this Blog posting are going to be pictures of the trees Meari pointed out to us a few weeks ago. They are trees meant to display decorations. Presently, they leave a whole lot to the imagination, but until I can get them placed in a permanent spot, or I should say THREE separate spots, they are looking a whole lot "nasty".

Max is presently having his ups and downs. Recently, he has become completely incoherent for about 8-10 hours following dialysis. He can not walk, use his hands, or even talk understandably during these times. Unfortunately, these times seem to be growing longer and longer after each dialysis. The doctors tell me his condition is presently "guarded".

A few weeks ago, I laid out the dress pants he had worn during his birthday open house on September 26. They are sized 32. The nurses called me to tell me there was no possible way that Max could wear these pants. I could not believe this, but had to believe them. One of the nurses said she would measure to see just what size I needed to buy for him so he would have dress clothes. Nurse reported he needed at least a 38 and more probably a 40!! I just could not believe this!! Nurses checked records and Max has only gained 6 pounds. Thus, the stomach expansion is all "liver" in failure. This is just some thing else Max does not need to have happen, but.............!! Max is having some fairly good days and I simply cherish them. I also had a phone put in his room and he is able to push one button and have me on it. Saturday morning the phone rang and woke me. My bedroom was completely dark yet and I went in to my frozen in fear mode. I answered the phone and noticed the time of being just 5:00 A.M. Max was on the phone totally livid that the nurses would not let him go to the dining room for supper!! I told him he had to wait 12 hours for it to be supper time and to go back to bed!! I was eventually called by the nurses wanting to know when I was going to be there as perhaps I could "calm" Max a bit. I still have a load of guilt just because my disabilities do not able me to take care of Max at home, where he should be. However, I am beginning to tell a few of the staff simply to do their job as I do my job each month in writing the monthly care check!! It is still simply one day at a time!!

I am doing okay!! Desperately trying to just establish some semblance of a schedule and trying to get some organization and REST in to my life

I have several finishes to post some are pictured under the trees. I believe I have taken the title of "serial starter". I have 50+ in separate clear shoe boxes stacked on my antique hope chest. I am truly enjoying my stitching!!

Love and Hugs To All !!

Deborah

Wednesday, February 02, 2011 I AM STILL HERE!!

Lopsided, but I am here, I think!!

We had very nice Christmas and New Year's holidays as I did have Max home on weekend visits. We did real good, despite my falling almost immediately upon arriving home on new year's eve afternoon. Unfortunately, Max began a very dangerous downward spiral shortly after the holidays. All I can say is it is truly one day at a time!!

I am presently working on taking some "ME" time. This is one of the hardest things I have ever done!! GUILT!! GUILT!! GUILT!!
My body began to give me final warnings to stop along with every one I know right down to our Pastor to start staying home more. I am beginning to try, as the weather is leaving me little other choice also!!

Max was rushed to hospital two days in a row by 911 Ambulance/Paramedics a few weeks ago. His blood pressure was 208/142 coupled with being completely incoherent. Was truly a jump start for me at 5:00 A.M. followed by a 2:00 A.M. wake up calls to go to the hospital to meet the ambulance!!

Max simply can not and/or possibly will not sit through his entire dialysis session any longer. He simply just begins to fuss a bit and escalates within minutes to adamantly demanding to be taken off the machine and just standing up and has actually threatened to take out his own needles!! There have been a few days he simply refused to even go to the dialysis center!! The Pastor has spoken to him at length along with doctors, staff, me, etc. and get no response from him. Perhaps he has simply just had enough, but no one knows for sure and I truly suspect especially Max him self.

I have finally experienced a few full days of not being with Max. Today was the first that was free of total physical and emotional exhaustion, although I have to admit I went in and out of bed till 2:00 p.m. I truly was guilt free and was able to some what relax and truly wondered what to do with my self in spite of viewing a home that needs cleaning and dozens of stitching projects calling to me!! The weather, and more to point, the snow MADE me stay in my home. My yard man did my snow and he made it a point to come in and tell me that he did have my drive open, but very much recommended I stay in today and tomorrow if at all possible. We are to drop to very low single digit temps tonight and tomorrow. Thus, I plan to stay in till at least Friday. Also, Max's dialysis had to be postponed today till tomorrow and he will be very tired. Dialysis days are lost for him as he has started to become very incoherent and confused about midway through session and this remains till later part of the evening. Max does not truly know me and actually prefers to just sleep away this time, so it is best he is just left alone to feel free to just sleep.

I am finally truly getting in some stitching time. I have dozens of things that will be finishes in short periods of time as they need very little. I got in habit of taking the "pillow" kits to dialysis as they were easy to do under the limited stitching light and area I had. I will have several done by probably end of this week.

I am now splitting my time in stitching and re-organizing my stitching.
"THAT" room still exists in my home and one way, or another, I am intent on getting through it before spring arrives. There is a major down sizing coming here soon. I will probably be just creating a new Blog for this as there are hundreds of things going to go!! I intend to organize "first come" basis for these things, however, I do intend to give Preference to every one who took the time to send Max birthday and Christmas cards!! Max and I both THANK all who were kind enough to think of him!!

I was not sure if I could remember how to post pictures or not. Thus, I did try to take a few pictures of the frontage of my home. I hope these come across well.

I will begin posting all my end of the year and first of the year finishes within the next few days!!

I AM BACK although some days I do feel buried under these drifts!!
I simply will never be over the loss of Max and Miprezious!!

Love and Hugs to All!!
Deborah
One of these days, I will figure out how to turn these pictures around!!

Drifts are tall as my canes!!